Constructive Depression

Lower lip trembles,

It threatens to flood,

Awash in the devastation,

The foundation has been ravaged.

No longer I yearn for shelter,

God has me accustomed to the climes.

I built a new home.

Red bricks and grim mortar,

Awash in the light of hope.

A better tomorrow,

No longer I cringe at smiles.

You have me wanting for more.

My palace towers above me.

Why do I still feel so small?

I am a queen.

Yet a slave to my doubts.

Life gave me no quarter.

I ask for too much.

Sunset after sunset.

A hard look in the mirror.

I am my plinth and my roof.

No earthquake shall uproot.

Disaster builds character.

And now my fortress stands strong.

The pursuit of purpose.

Are we alone in the universe? Is there a greater intelligence than ours? Do we have a purpose? Why do we exist? Perhaps the Earth is a thought experiment, only that the computation is being done by the human mind. The search for the meaning of life is unique for each individual; while some of us do not prioritize it, others make a living out of it. But the need to know ‘why’ exists in almost every one of us. In my pursuit for purpose, I have taken different paths and I hope you will be happy to explore them with me. Humans have asked the ‘why’ of their existence for centuries, but they have not agreed upon an answer. Many great minds seem to believe in many different hypotheses. Nihilism says humans have no purpose. Creationists believe that a God created us, but they don’t know why he did that. No holy scripture sets out an ultimate goal for humanity. Religion offers subtle guidelines of how to search for purpose, but for the most of it, religion preaches about the greater good. It l...

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Am I ready to become a mother?

No, I am not married nor in a committed relationship. No, I am not sexually active nor am I thinking of adoption. Today I am 26 years old and am wondering : am I ready to be a mother? I am thinking about this because there is a right time for everything and today is the right time to wonder about this particular phase of my life. Let me tell you a little more about myself. I am an engineer with a master's degree in control theory and am currently enrolled in a doctoral program. Being a student at this age is not fun. My friends have moved on in their lives and are successful in their jobs, are aspiring home-owners and parents. My family has just moved on and has stopped worrying about me, since I am a grown up. Financial independence means earning enough to cover rent and living in perpetual credit card debt. Add to that the onus of repaying student loans. My long distance relationship ended when my boyfriend did not long for me anymore and became distant. Times two. Getting a PhD ...

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